I was feeling really tired today. But I got up anyway and went to my weight watchers meeting this morning. I was feeling lighter and hoping that I lost a few pounds. I really wanted to get closer to my 10% goal. Seeing myself lighter on the scale was enough to motivate me to get going.
Unfortunately, this was not the week to get closer to my goal. At least, I did not get further away from my goal. I just stayed the same, 236.2lbs. No more, no less.
I feel discouraged. It has been over two weeks since I have seen significant weight loss. In two weeks, I have only lost only 0.2 lbs., not anything to write home about. I am frustrated because I feel like I really upped my game. I have been working out more and I have been very diligent about tracking. Still the scale did not move. The leaders say that this is normal, that my body is just adjusting to having lost 20 lbs., that soon I will be back to losing again if I just keep tracking and working out. If I step back and look at the big picture, I have lost an average of 1.7 lbs. a week over the 11 weeks. Overall that is a average weight loss. My expectations are getting in the way. I felt like I had lost weight this week so to not see it on the scale was disappointing. I want to quit. Quit tracking, quit moving so much, quit working so hard. I am tired.
I need to re-energize and what better way to do that than the 8 week challenge. Yes, it is 8 weeks until Thanksgiving. What am I going to do in 8 weeks? What is my goal? I hope to lose 10 lbs. which will get me past my 10% goal and get me to 30 lbs. lost. That would feel really great. Of course, I am a little concerned that the goal might be too high given the recent lack of weight loss over the past two weeks. But somehow it seems doable.
The first thing that I need to change in order to get better at tracking and hopefully lose more weight is to measure more often. Maybe my eyeballing of things is probably not as good as I think. Maybe if I measure more often I will right size my portions and head back down the road of weight loss. I want to continue to exercise and move. Maybe even change up my exercise routine a bit because maybe my body is getting too used to what I have been doing.
Perhaps, now that I have allowed myself to feel frustrated and discouraged about the last two weeks, I can move onto feeling hopeful about the next 8 weeks. Wish me luck and perseverance! Never give up!

